Thoughts on death.

A lot of things have been centered about death today, for one the news is full of it about a young actor’s accident, and it’s puzzling how people tend to always utter the same things when faced with such events, live to the fullest, tell the people you love that you love them. In reality there is no amount of preparation for the inevitable, one thing I’ve learned is that we face death the moment we are born, we are predestined to die. The only difference is how soon, or in what manner we’ll face our own deaths. Truly I feel sorry for the people who have been left behind. I know the pain and anguish and shock that comes with loosing someone. After the initial shock you might live on the edge for a while, or with extra carefulness one way or another. And then life goes on. But after loosing someone you now realize how volatile life is and now you’re woken up from the concept that there will always be tomorrow, because that’s not true for everyone. Death affects each one of us differently, the only constant thing about it is it changes you and how you look at the world. Yesterday you heard about it, you sympathized with people who have experienced it, but if you’re wearing the shoe of one who has been left behind you realize that many things that seem important to you don’t matter anymore. It’s just a journey and every journey ends. Having discovered this, the weak person that you used to be becomes resilient, sometimes indifferent and tougher. The things that used to plague your simple life stop bothering you. You tackle on the next problem knowing that there will be more to come but you are not afraid. You drop the concept of forever, you realize that although love does not last, so does sorrow. 

For some, and I can feel it happening to me, Happiness, like life is also fleeting. Expecting good things to be gone the second it arrives. And you can choose to continue living like this, safe, without fear, but also alone. I've always wondered how certain people can live alone, not bothered by what the future holds for them. I used to, but now I know. Sometimes people don't bother with life at all because it's going to end anyway, one way or another. And rather than having to put up with the trouble of mending or building new relationships, they make do with what they already have. For some, this turn in life can be viewed as a halt... stopping ones self from furthering experiences... in other words stop living. 

But it all depends on how you want your life to turn out. Live in the safety net, away from the things that can hurt you thus staying away from feeling anything towards anyone. Or challenge life, that tragic event can't possibly be the end of it, If death will take me one day then let it be a happy death where I can take all the smiles, tears and experiences that life has to offer.

But We can't judge. I can't judge the people who chose which path they want to take because No one can determine how life will treat the person. Life can throw more rocks even after a boulder crashed yours moments ago, or it can send you resting on a bed of petals, the calm after the storm. No one can tell, everyone is different. Our fates may be entwined but the reality is some people die in anguish, some die peacefully, some die with unfinished things and some die at the peak of their success. 

I feel stupid for having written this entry because when I reach a conclusion, I contradict myself a few seconds later. I was thinking of an ending but I can go on, with my inner battles forever and one blog entry won't be enough. With all these though, we have to learn to accept our mortality and what little time we have left.